It took me four years to realize that I was spending too much money on alcohol. I was a small business owner, but made more than I had ever expected when I opened. This meant I found myself “treating myself” far more often than I should have. First, it was trying out expensive wines. Then top brand brandy, rum, and whiskey. What can I say? I considered myself a connoisseur. It was a major mistake. By the time I was 36, I was a highly functioning alcoholic, and my daughter was a year away from college. My husband and I had gotten a divorce when I was 30, and I never remarried. Her college was almost entirely up to me, and I realized that I was going to cut back on what I was spending to even help her through her first year.
Spending Too Much Money on Alcohol Didn’t Only Affect Me
The thing that I didn’t understand about my addiction was that it was costing more than money and was affecting more than just myself. I knew that I needed to stop spending too much money on alcohol, but it wasn’t my first attempt. I stared my budget up and down and dismissed the idea of cutting back on booze. It was a hobby, I had rationalized. Nothing more, nothing less. I tried cutting back on food, entertainment, and clothing purchases before I even looked at my alcohol money.
I realized eventually that it was excessive and decided to cut back. When I looked at the bigger picture, it was affecting a lot more than just my own personal habits. It affected my daughter significantly, it affected my friends, and it affected any potential partners as well. There were days I didn’t have money to spend going out with the girls because I had made a purchase the day before. It was ridiculous, truly.
I Funneled the Money Elsewhere
I knew that this money problem sprouted from a deeper source. My alcoholism was driving my expenditures through the roof. I wasn’t just experiencing the world through a bottle. I was drowning my world in a bottle. It was hard for everyone near me to deal with. I decided to go to a luxury rehab, and when I left, I was able to better control all aspects of my life. As I quit drinking, my budget loosened significantly. The money that I had spent monthly on that was quickly funneled instead into a savings account for my daughter. I can now pay for her first year of college without difficulty and still have money left over for my own life. I can live comfortably knowing that I am healthier and safer, and that she is happy and furthering her life.